Epiphanies
Nov. 10th, 2006 11:11 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
mythtellerLast week, I had two energy healers come to my class to give talks on Reiki and Therapeutic Touch. As Roo (the lovely and talented ![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-userinfo.gif)
grrscary) demonstrated Reiki healing on one of my students, she asked the student if she had her shields up.
Many people have personal energy shields to protect themselves from being energetically drained or invaded. Ever sit by someone or have someone in your presence that just seems to drain the life out of you? They may not be doing anything overt, but there's just something about their presence that tires you out, leaving you exhausted or even ill. Other times, some people can have the opposite effect causing you to be coming agitated or even angry for no obvious reason. By learning personal shielding techniques, you can diminish or eliminate these effects.
In my case, I've got the perma-shield on. Nothing gets through it easily, although I can project energy easily enough. This usually means I that I have a more difficult time sensing energy or be affected by energetic healing. It's quite frustrating and I've long wondered where it comes from.
As I was chatting with the healers in my class, I mentionned the perma-shield and one of them said "It's a question of trust!" At first, I dismissed the comment because I trust these two people implicitly, but all at once, I was hit with a sudden ephipany on the nature and origin of my perma-shield.
Last year, I was seeing a therapist for a few months (over lingering depression issues). From those session, we realized that there are two beliefs stubbornly around in my noggin. They are as follows:
1. The world is out to get me.
2. I will always ultimately fail at whatever I attempt (especially if it's my idea) because the world is out to get me.
These are thoughts that are tied into several events from my childhood and adolescent years. They are not logical, I know that they are incorrect, I know intellectually that they are false. But on another level (maybe the emotional level), I can't shake these Truths. I want to let them go, but I can't imagine how.
So if I really believe that the world is out to get me, then I would need to be permanently shielded from whatever the world decides to hurl at me. Hence, the perma-shield.
Amazing. Now the question is: can I unlearn these two beliefs and what will happen to me if I do?
grrscary) demonstrated Reiki healing on one of my students, she asked the student if she had her shields up. Many people have personal energy shields to protect themselves from being energetically drained or invaded. Ever sit by someone or have someone in your presence that just seems to drain the life out of you? They may not be doing anything overt, but there's just something about their presence that tires you out, leaving you exhausted or even ill. Other times, some people can have the opposite effect causing you to be coming agitated or even angry for no obvious reason. By learning personal shielding techniques, you can diminish or eliminate these effects.
In my case, I've got the perma-shield on. Nothing gets through it easily, although I can project energy easily enough. This usually means I that I have a more difficult time sensing energy or be affected by energetic healing. It's quite frustrating and I've long wondered where it comes from.
As I was chatting with the healers in my class, I mentionned the perma-shield and one of them said "It's a question of trust!" At first, I dismissed the comment because I trust these two people implicitly, but all at once, I was hit with a sudden ephipany on the nature and origin of my perma-shield.
Last year, I was seeing a therapist for a few months (over lingering depression issues). From those session, we realized that there are two beliefs stubbornly around in my noggin. They are as follows:
1. The world is out to get me.
2. I will always ultimately fail at whatever I attempt (especially if it's my idea) because the world is out to get me.
These are thoughts that are tied into several events from my childhood and adolescent years. They are not logical, I know that they are incorrect, I know intellectually that they are false. But on another level (maybe the emotional level), I can't shake these Truths. I want to let them go, but I can't imagine how.
So if I really believe that the world is out to get me, then I would need to be permanently shielded from whatever the world decides to hurl at me. Hence, the perma-shield.
Amazing. Now the question is: can I unlearn these two beliefs and what will happen to me if I do?
